It's Always Better in The Silence

Sorry, this is ridiculous. But I just want to write. Let me whine.

The war has just ended,
but the hurricane couldn't wait to come
I found dead people everywhere
Maybe it's just the best way, to make it better
It's too sad to see, to hear, even to smell
It's just too terrible
I can't bear
People look at me in horror
They are insanely yelling at me

Now it's better in the silence
It's always better, much better
The birds are fighting against each other, silently
The concert is held with no electricity, unplugged gears
It's raining, but I just feel it, I won't hear it
It's always better in the silence
I can rest my mind, and everything
And my heart doesn't beat as fast as before
I can feel my blood pumps
It just feels good
In the silence

It's nothing, I just want to rest my mind
The things were tiring, and I did feel the pain
I want to be healed
I want more affection
Sorry, let me refresh my mind
I think I need a brainwasher
My thoughts mixed up together
They concocted and created a perfect pain
It's bad, too bad
Maybe this is too much
But please, let me whine, just for a while

Thank you, and sorry for this weird post.
I feel much better.

I Hate This Backache

Halo semua! Maaf, judulnya aneh. Tapi punggung gw (bukan punggung juga sih apa ya bilangnya haha) emang lagi sakit banget nih. Apalagi kalo lagi melakukan kegiatan haha. Oke nggak penting.
Minggu ini ujian praktek. Hari ini hari kedua. Hahaha. Yaa luckily so far so good lah. Hari Senin kemaren gw ujian fisika dan seni rupa. Untung banget fisika gw dapetnya nggak gitu susah, alat musschenbroek. Gw belajar udah nggak serius gitu, tapi ya untung nggak dapet aneh-aneh. Seni rupa, persiapannya lebai banget. Beli clay (mahal lagi), bikin sampe punggung gw pegel-pegel. Abis dicat di sekolah punya gw mungkin paling jelek di kelas hahaha. Standar banget gitu, yang lain bentuk mukanya bagus. Punya gw sederhana banget, hihi.

Dan HARI INI, kita ujian praktek komputer. Kemaren Lala sama Nirmi ke rumah gw buat belajar VisualBasic, Frontpage, dan Excel. Terus gitu deh, kita juga rada-rada nggak ngerti. Terus gw juga ngerasa susah banget, lupa-lupa. Apalagi VB. Tapi ternyata, pas ujian praktek, soalnya nggak gitu susah. Yaa termasuk simple lah. Terus form, data-data, udah disiapin sama guru gw. Oke keluar lab kompi gw kayak girang banget gitu deh, hahaha. Dan si Marcia (beda kelas sama gw) nanya soal kompinya, tadinya gw nggak mau kasih tau. Biar kayak kelas gw (sebelom kelas gw nggak ada kelas lain, jadi kelas gw yaitu 91 pertama), deg-degan lebai awalnya, ternyata soalnya biasa aja. Hahaha tapi akhirnya gw kasih tau sih si Marcia. Gw nggak segitunya juga hehe.
Siangnya, kita ujian musikalisasi puisi bahasa indo. Gila ya, dari semua ujian yang paling perlu latian serius itu ujian ini. Salah kita juga sih mendadak gitu latiannya, terus baru serius pas akhir-akhir gara-gara Rizca sakit haha. Tapi setelah jadi gw seneng gitu, hehehe. Tadi sebelum tampil, jujur aja gw takut banget. Deg-degan sampe gemeteran gitu (gw tau ini lebai, terserah lo). Haha, tapi gw seneng aja musikalisasi ini. Bisa main gitar :) Oia anyway, Tv juga bisa nangis otomatis gitu, hebat ya haha. Terus, lagu pianonya Tannia juga untungnya pas banget sama puisinya. Propertynya yang dibikin susah payah sama Nirmi sampai menyita waktu tidurnya (hahaha), yaitu nisan yang jadinya bagus.
Yaa untunglah, semuanya untunglah :)

OKE, besok gw ujian tata boga. Hari ini hari istirahat banget (mungkin) buat kelas 91. Barusan gw baru bikin text buat speech inggris hari kamis (tentang Elvis loh), doakan ya hahaha. Hari kamis gw juga ujian presentasi agama suara hati hahaha (ini paling males). Hari jumat ujian listening inggris, dan biologi. Gw nggak mau banget dapet bedah kodok, ckck. Dan akhirnya, hari sabtu, ujian bahasa indo mendengarkan.
Mudah-mudahan semua lancar. Buat ada yang gagal atau apa gitu, tenang aja nggak mungkin dikasi nilai nggak lulus kok (kalo gw bilang haha).
Goodluck :)

anyway, foto musikalisasi menyusul :0

2nd of May

Latihan musikalisasi di rumah gw, ujung-ujungnya menyimpang lagi.

Inilah hasilnya, hahahaha.

Tapi seenggaknya udah jadi setengah gitu musikalisasinya hahaha. Bagus hihihi.

(foto acel gitaran di bawah ini meli yang foto)

Euphoria

Euphoria
Etymology: Gk, eu + pherein, to bear
1 a feeling or state of well-being or elation.
2 an exaggerated or abnormal sense of physical and emotional well-being not based on reality or truth, disproportionate to its cause, and inappropriate to the situation, as commonly seen in the manic stage of bipolar disorder, some forms of schizophrenia, organic mental disorders, and toxic and drug-induced states. Compare ecstasy.

I don't know what I'm feeling. It's like euphoria. But it doesn't mean I'm using ecstasy or any kind of drugs in the defintion above. Hahaha.

I am just too happy. I can finally laugh, I am perfectly healed (like my previous post). I have no idea. Although there are still many things to do for school (like ujian praktek and all those stuffs), I feel much better than yesterday. So I use the word 'euphoria'. I don't have any word that fits on this feeling. If you read the definition, it's more into the physcological word or something, that abnormally happens to people ahahaha. Just for fun. I just like the word.

Although I still have many things to do. Although I still have to study. Although I still have a computer assignment that due on next Monday. Although I'm still sleepy. Although there are still dark circles under my eyes (fuck i hate them). I feel much better :) And I can rest my mind. I love this short-period ability.

I just want to say thank you. And I can't wait for my holiday, I'm really looking forward into it. Thank you for giving me the chance to laugh again.

Anyway, check this out. I've found some great cartoons. Hahaha; http://www.glasbergen.com/

I am Perfectly Healed

HURRAY :)

Finally I've finished my board test today. Hore nggak ada pelajaran bahasa indo, inggris, mat, dan ipa lagi. nggak ada peltam indo dan fisika lagi, hore hore HORE.

Kemaren gw sempet sakit pas hari selasa dan rabu, badan gw panas dan pusing banget gitu. Untungnya tadi mending dan gw bisa ngerjain dengan baik. Hehehe. Dan untungnya juga, gw bisa ngerjain ujiannya pas selasa dan rabu. Gila kalo sampe harus susulan haha.

Now that I am too happy. Hahaha.

Sehingga akhirnya, beginilah hahaha.

Soal Tryout1 negeri (IPA) yang gw benci banget.

Robek aja ya :p Gak perlu lagi hahaha

Oke. Sebenernya gw masih ada ujian praktek dan UAS. Ujian praktek mulai Senin besok. Emang stres banget, tapi hari ini gw pengen bersantai ria dulu. I'm perfectly healed, no more headaches and I can finally laugh, with friends :)

Ujian Akhir Nasional

Gw nggak punya judul kreatif-kreatif lagi buat post ini. Udah, cukup itu aja.
Hooh, udah dua hari ujian nasional. Yaa, so far so good lah. Doain aja buat mat dan ipa dua hari besok, semoga bisa ngerjain dengan teliti daaaann inget semua materi :)
Good luck juga buat semua anak kelas 9, kita pasti lulus, hehe.

Besok mat. Hari ini gw masih nggak tau bakal belajar apa gak. Dari tadi siang gw belom buka tas dan nyentuh buku sama sekali. Tadi gw tidur, ngerasa badan gw nggak enak. Yaaa, minta doain aja deh. Supaya gw teliti dan mampu (aduh bahasanya haha).

Oke, udahan yaa.

Broken Promises

Maaf, karena tadi gw uda bilang nggak mau ngepost lagi buat hari ini. Tangan gw gatel, pengen nulis-nulis apa gitu. Kemaren gw juga mau masukin foto-foto di rumah Rizca, tapi belom-belom juga. Maaf. Maaf. Maaf.

Enam puluh menit berlalu.
Aku ingat-ingat lagi kesalahan terakhir yang aku buat.
Kesalahan lagi. Lagi.
Aku ingin akhiri keramaian ini.
Dunia rumit.
Berantakan. Gaduh.
Aku ingat-ingat lagi kata-kata yang terakhir kuucapkan.
Yang terakhir aku rangkai menjadi sekumpulan kalimat.
Yang aku bicarakan.
Yang menimbulkan nyeri di telinga.
Yang menyakitkan.

Air mata buaya.
Untuk apa menangis?
Aku ingin tutup mulut setiap orang yang berteriak di telingaku.
Caci-maki, kita sebut seperti itu.
Aku ingin berhenti sejenak.
Menghentikan seluruh kerja organ tubuhku.
Melepaskan kemampuan otakku sejenak.
Beri waktu.
Lima menit saja.
Atau kurang dari itu. Tiga menit.
Asalkan ada waktu.

Bodoh, buang-buang waktu saja.

Maaf, dulu gw janji nggak akan nulis aneh-aneh lagi di blog ini. Gw nggak tau lagi, cuma bisa bilang maaf. Ini nggak penting, nggak usah dibaca. Gw cuma pengen nulis. Ini nggak ada arti apa-apa kok. Jangan menganggap yang nggak-nggak. Makasih.

I Won't Write For The 3rd Time

This is the 2nd post for today. And I won't write for the 3rd time. I'm so tired.
So today I've had my board test. It was Bahasa Indonesia, and it wasn't really easy. Tomorrow I'll have English test, a bit nervous. But as you see, I am too lazy to study. Here I am, sitting in front of my computer, writing on my blog. I'm exhausted. I am too tired.
I'm so sorry readers. This is what I worry about. I rarely upload pics here, and I write too much. I whine a lot.
Hoooh, it's definitely not a good day. School just drives me nuts. Friends are great. But my mood swings easily and now it's terrible. I just want to close my eyes.

Please teach me how to say sorry. Because I really don't know. But I want to apologize. Just forgive me, okay?
It's weird. It's just my mood. Close this window if you think it's ridiculous. I need your opinion, if there's a problem with this blog please let me know. Thankyou.